Guess who’s back, back again.
‘Iyyaaaa, it has been a while but I have finally got my head
in gear and sat down to write something on this little old blog again.
The end of last year was pretty mental in a great number of ways: had some amazing trips, planned some even more amazing ones, discovered a love for getting my sweat on, struggled a bit with my brain being mean, fought a general election, had eye surgery, took even more photos of my dog, handed in my notice to go and travel the world and had a wonderful Christmas and New Year with all the best people.
It feels like we are five months into the year and yet it is still only January but I’ve already got a lot to be grateful and excited for in this new decade. And while the dark evenings and de-icing the car every morning ain’t ever fun, I’ve had a bit more of a battle this year than normal to get over them pesky post-Christmas blues.
Over the last few months, I have been struggling to practice what I normally preach so loudly about loving oneself just as you are because sometimes, that is tough. It is tough thinking mean things about yourself despite knowing those mean things are completely irrational. It is tough struggling with feeling food guilt about something you ate two days ago. It is tough looking in the mirror and being unable to say ‘hell yes girl, you are fire’, even though you should say that everytime without fail. It is really bloody tough when your brain decides to turn on you and while most of the time, you can shut it out, sometimes you just can’t.
I’ve been working really hard to combat this and regain my inner ‘oompf’ and slowly but surely I am getting there. No day’s the same but I am trying to make each one count. All we can do is take each day as it comes, remember our body is our home and that she deserves all the love in the world. We are nearly at the end of first month of 2020 and despite the tumultuous start in a number of ways, there’s a lot to be thankful for and a few little things that have sparked a great deal of joy.
1. Eye surgery
As a lifelong glasses and contact lens wearer, the decision to have laser eye surgery had always been one I’d thought about but didn’t think I’d ever actually get around to doing. Lasering the eyeball doesn’t sound like everyone’s cup of tea but after years of poor vision and the impending, exciting worldwide adventure on the cards (more on this soon!), I decided to take the plunge.
The treatment was really quick, a bit trippy and I was very glad my mum came with me but in a few days, my eyes were feeling OK and I was amazed how quickly everything healed up. It also was the perfect excuse to wear sunglasses everywhere for a fortnight. Diva, moi?!
In all seriousness, it has been life changing and I would definitely recommend to anyone considering it. 20/20 vision, in 2020, wahey!
2. Saying goodbye
The start of 2020 saw the end of an era in my family with the sale of my great aunt’s house finally completing after a year and a half of effort, energy, tears, laughs and more trips to the charity shop than you could possibly imagine. I am also now a Gumtree connoisseur. It is one of the hardest jobs we have all had to do and it was a real Parker family effort but at last, it’s done. I like to think we have done right by our Auntie Bet and while it has been a year and a half since we said goodbye, I feel closer to her than ever.
3. Sex Education
If you haven’t seen this yet, then what the heck are you doing here?! I give you absolute permission to pause your reading, log into your Netflix and prepare for 16 episodes of just plain brilliance. We binge watched this over a few days and it never failed to cheer up and made me feel warm and fuzzy inside.
I know everyone is banging on about it (ho hum!) but it really is that bloody good. It’s heartwarming, beautifully right on, laugh out loud funny, powerful in a casual, effective way, brilliantly acted, stylistically gorge and filmed just down the road from Newport- what more could you possibly want?!
I wish wish wish this had been on when I was young whipper-schnapper, it is a game changer and I already can’t wait for Series 3 to find out more about the adventures of Otis, Eric, Maeve, Lily, Aimee, Ola, Adam, Viv, Jackson and the absolutely flawless Gillian Anderson as Dr Jean Millburn; I want all of her jumpsuits, like now please.
A must see and a real gem.
4. Trip planning
We have an amazing year and a half ahead: backpacking in south East Asia, road-tripping around Europe and beginning with jet setting off to the other side of the world for six weeks to drive around New Zealand in a campervan (eeeee) but that isn’t the only trip on the cards. My beautiful Momma P and I are off to the Big Apple next week: sometimes there’s nothing like a spontaneous last minute trip to the concrete jungle where dreams are made of in February!
We got a bargain deal through BA and will be staying just off Times Square, in the snow, no doubt. NYC has always been a bucket list spot for me- what better way than a mother/daughter adventure taking in all the sights, climbing Lady Liberty, walking Brooklyn Bridge and just soaking up the city that never sleeps. Super excited, all my layers will be packed, duvet coat ready to rock and in the throes of final planning. There’s only one thing left to say: ‘start spreading the news…’
5. Baby you should go and love yourself
Something I wasn’t great too good at towards the end of last year was taking care of myself so one of my new year’s resolutions was enacting a bit more self-love on the reg. I’ve been making a really conscious effort to read more in the evenings, rather than mindless scrolling on the social media. I’ve taken better care of my skin, moisturising with Body Shop shea butter post-shower every day (stops you being scaly and smells amazing) and enjoying taking my makeup off with a double cleanse and the Pixi Glow Tonic (never felt so dewy) each evening.
I’ve been enjoying seeing myself get stronger through regularly making exercise part my daily routine, especially getting my Namaste on with the wonderful Yoga with Adriene. Her easy to follow at home yoga videos have been a life saver at the end of a long day and I am really enjoying seeing my own progress in such a short space of time. Adriene’s videos also bring huge joy with the addition of her dog Benji taking part in every practice. If you haven’t tried one of her videos, I highly recommend it.
I’ve also seen in the new year with articulating how I’ve been feeling in my brain. Sometimes, saying it out loud to someone and chatting it through can make all the difference. I am still working through my new relationship with food and body image but talking about it, finding inspiration online and booking in to speak to a therapist are all acts of self-care that I’m really proud of so far this month.
So there we have it, a little summary of the last few months and general January musings. Thanks for making it this far and I wish you a happy, healthy, love filled new decade.
2020 is gonna be a belter; a year of adventure, of joy and being kind to ourselves. X